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Here's a great video from a local news station here with our miracle man, Dr. T!!! Love him! My friend, Jill, and I are were laughing at the staged "office chat" with the very pregnant girl in the video. First, you've graduated from the fertility clinic long before you ever start showing - you don't see big bellies there! And second, that's actually one of Dr. T's nurses! Too funny...

Monday Funny.

The Birds & The Bees

One more video for you guys today... found this on a friend's blog - love it!

All Eyes on Tuesday

The time's flown by pretty quickly, thanks to this relaxing 3-day weekend, but I'm definitely a little anxious for my beta results on Tuesday. I'm not fearful, but I certainly have ups and downs when it comes to wondering if everything is as it should be up in my girly parts. It's hard not to over-analyze every twitch and tingle. Is that good? Is that bad? What does Dr. Google say? Well, Dr. Google can really give you whatever answer you want to hear if you just keep asking.

Like for the spotting issue, you get plenty of sites and forums saying this is "completely normal" and not to worry about it. Then you find others that say, "OMG, go the ER now!!!!" So I just pick the answers I like best and deem them legit. But, yeah... I still am a bit anxious for those numbers on Tuesday so I can set aside the crazy for a few days. I don't have any real reason to think the numbers wouldn't be where they should be, but it's just absolutely unnerving waiting on that call!

Still though, whatever happens going forward, it's awesome that we've made it as far as we have. Progress is progress. I continue to pray for this little one, but I also pray constantly for peace with whatever path God is taking us down. But for now, let's keep celebrating where we are! I'm into the 6th week and there is a lot going on...



This week's major developments: The nose, mouth, and ears that you'll spend so much time kissing in eight months are beginning to take shape. If you could see into your uterus, you'd find an oversize head and dark spots where your baby's eyes and nostrils are starting to form. His emerging ears are marked by small depressions on the sides of the head, and his arms and legs by protruding buds. His heart is beating about 100 to 160 times a minute — almost twice as fast as yours — and blood is beginning to course through his body. His intestines are developing, and the bud of tissue that will give rise to his lungs has appeared. His pituitary gland is forming, as are the rest of his brain, muscles, and bones. Right now, your baby is a quarter of an inch long, about the size of a lentil. [from babycenter.com]


It still amazes me how fast these little suckers develop. I mean, 2 1/2 weeks ago it was a spec of dust and now it's developing all the major organs and has a beating heart. What?! Pretty exciting. Also around 6 weeks is when nausea sets in for a lot of women. I'm not there yet - definitely no vomiting on my end. But I still am having episodes where food in general just doesn't excite me. And it's gotten harder and harder to eat my one hard boiled egg every morning. I think I've given up on that for now. It just grosses me out.

Still got the sore boobs, which look "nice and big" according to my mother. Thanks, Mom. And minor cramping here and there - that's been pretty constant this whole time. Light spotting off and on. I did have a dizzy spell this morning but I don't know if maybe I just got up out of bed too fast or something. And speaking of the bed, we totally slept in this morning... LATE. We never do that. Like 8am is sleeping in to us. Yeah, we were still in the bed at 10:30am. Now granted, I did get up around 8am and fed the dogs, got some cereal, turned the TV on, and got back in bed. So after my cereal, I managed to fall back asleep for another two hours. Highly unusual for me. So yeah, I've also been tired too! All good signs, I suppose.

Alright, I've got to go fold a load of clothes and then sit my butt on the couch to "recover" from folding the load of clothes. Hahaha... I'm trying hard to take it super easy this weekend and rest. Hope you all have a wonderful Memorial Day and safe travels to all who are on the road or in the air! We will just be doing a casual cookout at my parents'. I'll be back Tuesday with our final beta results! Keep those prayers comin'...

5 Weeks Today!

Pretty monumental and definitely cause for celebration as we've never ever made it all the way through week 5 before. The little precious spec of dust (or two?) is now the size of an appleseed!



Yeah, I'm pretty sure there's just one babe in there. I'd think my hormone levels would be much higher if both had stuck around, but you never know! We won't know for sure till at least the 1st ultrasound.

Hope you all have a wonderful holiday weekend! Oh and by the way, my jury duty yesterday was nothin'. We got assigned to a judge and a case and then the defendant entered a plea before we could even get in the courtroom, so we were dismissed. I was in and out of there in 2 hours. Works for me!

OK, I'm satisfied.

Today was rather monumental. As I mentioned before - the last time we had a 2nd beta on a Monday, I took a test the Sunday before and noticed the 2nd line had faded. It was still there, but significantly less so. I wasn't expecting today's test to go backwards at all, but I just needed wanted that extra bit of reassurance. So there you go...




I'm thinking the line's just not gonna get much darker at this point! I was planning to test again tomorrow, but I really think I am satisfied. People keep saying, "yes, a line is a line - you're pregnant." I know that - I never doubted the fact that it was positive. I just wanted to make sure it stayed that way. Hey, you signed up for crazy with me - I warned ya!

So, I'm starting to *try* to embrace the fact that I'm... pregnant. It's been awkward for me to say those words. Anyone I've told our news to I've said, "We got a positive test!" I haven't actually said, "I'm pregnant!" That just sounds presumptuous and weird. I think maybe I need to see it on the ultrasound screen before I can truly get what's going on inside my body right now! Infertiles often have trouble enjoying pregnancy... when it takes SO long to achieve it, after many failed attempts, it's hard to know what to think of it when it finally happens. You're overwhelmed with excitement, yet handicapped by a constant state of worry that you're going to lose it (again). So you feel a little awkward celebrating and being told "Congratulations!" It's just weird, that's all I can say. A good weird, but weird.

BUT, speaking of what is going on inside my body, I find these week-by-week pregnancy guides super fascinating. It is seriously wicked cool how FAST those microscopic embryos turn into little humans. Right now I'm 4 weeks + 3 days, so I'm in the middle of the 5th week...



If you are in your fifth week, you might not be able to stop yawning [tell me about it] long enough to read this! Sleeping in a jog bra can help the breast soreness [the estrogen pills kicked this one in early]. You may even feel a cramping or a full feeling in your uterus. Some women may also get headaches [YES - these come and go] from a rise in hormones . . .

Your baby's heart will begin to beat this week! It's amazing how much is happening so quickly. A transvaginal ultrasound will show about 90% of the yolk sacs. It is possible to differentiate between the head and the tail of your baby now. By the end of the week that folic acid will be paying off as the neural folds begin to fuse. Average length is 1.5 - 2.5 mm.


How crazy is that? A beating heart ALREADY? Wow. Well, tomorrow is beta #2 and I'm super excited to get those numbers so I can venture into a new realm of crazy... over-analyzing the rise in beta numbers. Ideally, they should double every 48-72 hours (the faster, the better). So if I'm doing the math right, I'm looking for something over 700. After tomorrow, we should have one more beta and then we'll do our first ultrasound sometime between the 6th and 7th week. Eeks!

Well, enjoy the rest of your weekend... I'll be back tomorrow with beta #s!


Above photo and text from about.com

Beta Today!

Dare I say peeing on a stick each morning has become rather thrilling? It's like our daily scorecard right now. And we went digital today...



Now there's no misreading that one! (Follow the arrows if you're not seeing it.)

And of course we did the normal two-liner to see how we compared to days 1 and 2. Getting darker!!! Right, right?!

So my 1st beta is TODAY! We are getting there super early so I can get a call-back early. Hopefully I will know something by lunchtime... we'll see!

One Day at a Time

That's our mantra right now.

So far, so good...

It's a *little* bit darker today. (Don't tell me if you disagree. You're just not concentrating hard enough.) But hey, I'm really just jazzed that a 2nd line is still there period. Tomorrow, we're going digital. I've been holding off on that one in fear of it flashing "NOT PREGNANT" too early. It might as well say, "YOU FAILED!" Can't it say something less crushing, like... "MAYBE NEXT TIME?" Anyway, we'll give that one a go tomorrow.

AND tomorrow is my first beta. So I'm of course very anxious to get those numbers. Really my first big goal is to make it past beta #2 with increasing numbers. If you recall, that's where we fell short two years ago. So assuming we can accomplish that, we'll have made it farther than we ever have! But again... one day at a time. I'm really trying to just enjoy being pregnant today and not worry too much about what happens tomorrow. Easier said than done, but the worrying will get me nowhere. I'm still spotting, which I know is not a bad thing necessarily but it still makes me nervous. It's simply out of my control, so what's a girl to do? Just breathe and make it to the next day.

Thanks again for all your sweet comments, emails, and tweets yesterday! Each one made me smile! I so appreciate the love and support! xoxo

Precious Babes

The transfer went perfectly! My lining looked beautiful and so did our TWO sweet embryos!




Over the last couple of days I was hoping Dr. T would be comfortable putting two in (vs. 1) - it just felt like the way to go. And sure enough, he was all about it. More video and pics to come, but for now I'm going to take it easy and concentrate on baking these sweet little buns.

Once again, thanks so much for all the love and prayers!

FET Video Diary: Transfer Day

We thought we'd be able to film inside the transfer room - Dr. T was cool with it - but, the facility itself has strict regulations against it, so no dice. But we were allowed to get a few pics in there! And we did get some footage before and after...

Everything went smoothly aside from the fact that my bladder was about to BURST! The nurse actually let me pee a *little* bit because I was overly full. There was a "difficult transfer" ahead of us that backed our time up a bit. Any other appointment, no biggie. But when you've got to maintain a full bladder, well... NOT fun! But of course we made it through fine. All is good!

Here are a couple of pics of the ultrasound screen...

The reason for the full bladder is that it allows them to differentiate between the bladder and uterus on screen so the doctor can direct the catheter (carrying the embryos) to the money spot. This isn't the greatest pic, but this is an actual screen shot from the ultrasound where you can see the embryos going in! The bright white spot the arrow is pointing to is the fluid containing the embryos, so we get to watch it as they go in. How COOL is that?!

And here's a look back into the lab. This is where all our sweet babes are sleepin' on ice! That's actually Graham back there, not Peter. Peter was sick the day of our transfer. He was in the lab, but was staying away from patients. Aw, we missed you Peter! But Graham was very cool too. All the embryologists have excellent accents.




The lab is literally right next to the transfer room. When we first get into the transfer room and set up on the exam table, the embryologist comes in and shows us our embryos on screen and tells about their quality, etc. Then he loads the catheter in the lab and brings it out as soon as Dr. T gives him the go-ahead. The lights are off (which is why all our pics are so dark) so the little babes aren't disturbed. Once Dr. T transfers the embryos, he gives the catheter back to the embryologist to verify that no embryos were left in the catheter. All clear! And it's done.

And that, my friends, is where the magic happens.

FET Video Diary: Progesterone, Take 2

Holy CRAP, my right butt cheek hurts. The first shot was rather easy peasy, aside from the soreness and insomnia that followed. But this second attempt got that muscle good. Dear me. I had to brighten up this video during editing, so that's why my 'puter screen looks like something out of Tron. So yeah, excuse the quality but it's indeed light years better than the mess I left you with yesterday. You can actually SEE something this time!





Oh and a question for you PIO pros... could the hub be shoving the needle in faster? Looks like he's going in total slow-mo to me. I totally jab my itty needles in hard and fast. Should we do the same with these? Or would that hurt like hell? I'm taking any pointers I can get, so bring it.


Also while messing around on You Tube I found an old video of our beloved embryologist. OMG I'm so glad y'all get to hear his accent. Just listening to it gets me so jazzed up for Wednesday! You can't understand half of what he says, but that's part of his charm. Take good care of our babies, Peter! *Eets gude!* We'll see you in a few days...





Up Next: TRANSFER DAY! Don't have an exact time yet, but it'll be Wednesday! I'll be taking the whole day off and my schedule will be transfer-acupuncture-couch.

Previous: PIO Shot #1, CD16

FET Video Diary: Progesterone

Disclaimer: This is possibly the worst quality video ever taken. The angle is bad, the lighting is horrible, my hand is covering up half the screen, and you can't really see what's going on. Valuable footage, huh? Well let's just say it was about 9:45pm when we got around to doing this first PIO shot and we were both exhausted and not in the mood to be on camera. So I just consider this REAL reality TV, friends. So it is what it is - and more than anything, I just wanted to document this first one since I've been a little freaked out about it ever since those big ass needles arrived in the mail weeks ago. I think we'll film the next one as well to see if we can get a better angle on my bum... without showing my entire bum to the world!

So yes, just a recap here... today's CD16 and this is the first of (hopefully) many PIO shots that I will have to do nightly. Just as it's called, it is progesterone literally in an oil. So my question is, if 1mL of oil is being injected directly into my butt, do I need to log those calories in?! I mean, for real. I am literally injecting fat into my butt. Because we certainly need more of that! I will continue these injections on past the transfer on Wednesday and if pregnant, I think I may have to do them for the entire first trimester... not sure. One step at a time here!

The shot itself was not bad at all. I rubbed some Lidocaine cream on my bum beforehand and I think that definitely helped. I could tell it was working because after flossing my teeth later, I realized I must not have gotten all the cream off my fingers. I suddenly felt like I was at the dentist... the left side of my mouth was going numb. Well, glad to know it works!





Today I also started the two oral meds I mentioned earlier - Medrol and Doxycycline. I'm still on 2mg of Estrace three time a day (1 orally, 2 vaginally). And I'm still on Lupron right up until the transfer. Post-transfer I will just be on the progesterone and Estrace (estrogen). Oh and baby aspirin - I take one of those daily as well. Not to mention my other million herbs and pre-natal vitamins. I am a pill poppin' fool.

Next Up: Like I said, we'll try to get a better video of the PIO shots, but the next big step is the TRANSFER! Only 4 more days - wow!

Previous: Lining Check, CD12

Yikes!

It's PIO (progesterone in oil) day #1... I'm super excited to be moving forward with yet another step, but there's no denying I'm a bit skeered of those needles!!!!



Yeah, like 70% excited, 30% freaked out...

Ack! I can do it, I can do it! The hub will definitely be giving me my first shot while I'm horizontal. I've got my Lidocaine cream to rub on my bum beforehand to numb the injection site some. And several have suggested I use a heating pad afterward.

I'm also starting a couple of other oral meds today - Doxycycline (antibiotic for the transfer), and Medrol (steroid used to help the body from rejecting the embryo(s) transferred). The transfer is less than a week away! Eeks! So excited!

As far as how I'm feeling physically... very run down and fat. The "IVF bloat" is no joke during this cycle. I definitely gained some weight with my first (fresh) cycle, but these meds on this frozen cycle are for sure packing on the pounds in a much more noticeable fashion. Actually, it's not a ton of extra poundage - more so extra fluff. I am up 8-10 lbs from my normal weight (depends on the day), but I look like I've gained at least 15lbs. And I basically cannot fit into any of my pants besides jeans. I even resorted back to a pair of cords yesterday (it was freezing yesterday morning!) that I call my "fat cords" because they usually hang off of me. Yeah, I totally had the button rigged with a hair band because I couldn't comfortably button them up. I usually wear a lot of skirts and dresses to work in the summer, but my legs are all torn up from that cupping procedure I mentioned during acupuncture...




Yeah, not attractive. And it's actually looking better today - it was pretty rough the last few days, so that pic is an improvement. I'm going back to acupuncture again today... not sure if she's going to do another round of this stuff. It basically improves circulation. Hey, whatever works!

And yes, also feeling really tired much of the time. It's definitely the Lupron talking. But yesterday I think I caught some sort of a little bug... I was more exhausted than usual and had that tingly skin feeling all up and down my back. And was starting to really feel nauseous. I was totally worthless at work and it was a slow day, so after lunch I packed my stuff up and headed home and straight to bed. (Yeah, no Cinco de Mayo'ing this year for us.) There's no need to push myself right now. I'm trying very hard to take it easy and take care of myself. Feeling more normal today though... at least my current normal. So hopefully whatever I had yesterday has exited my system. I don't have time to be sick!

Alright... gotta get moving. Hope you all have a fabulous Friday and a wonderful Mother's Day weekend! I know Mother's Day is a tough one for the infertiles. Hugs to you all - I know it can be a very lonely sort of day, but you're not alone. So let's put our game face on girls... I will be celebrating my lovely momma this weekend!

FET Video Diary: Lining Check

This morning we had my one and only ultrasound for this cycle... this is one of the main things that is WAY easier about a frozen cycle versus a fresh one. With a fresh cycle, you have DAILY monitoring appointments with your favorite vaginal wand because they're monitoring the growth of your follicles. With an FET cycle, they're simply checking the lining of the uterus to make sure it's plump enough to move forward. Ideally, they like to see the lining get to 8mm before starting the progesterone shots. Well, today mine measured at 7.5!!! A total victory in our eyes, as mine has never made it past 6.9 on ultrasound before. So we are really, really thrilled with that result. And the good news is, I still have a few days to grow before starting the progesterone on Friday. Once you start that med, the lining kinda levels off.

We were able to get some quick shots of the ultrasound screen, but for whatever reason, those pieces of film were NOT cooperating when we tried uploading them. I finally gave up after multiple attempts. But at least we got SOME video of today. And pardon my I-just-rolled-out-of-bed look here. I promise I showered.




Next Up: We start progesterone and a couple of other oral meds on Friday! Eeks! Stay tuned for a video of the first shot...

Previous: Endometrial Biopsy, CD 24

In case you were wondering...

Lupron headache + warm Noni juice = the grossest thing ever.

My phone is dead so I can't get on twitter, and I needed to share that. Anyway, had a great ultrasound today! Lining measured at 7.5 - a personal record. We're very thrilled. Afterward, I got my legs butchered up again at acupuncture and started back on the Noni. You know, the super juice that tastes like liquid trash.

Is this getting fun, or what?! I'll be back later with today's video (woot!) and more deets...

Update (5/6/11): STILL trying to get our dang video from Monday to upload. Technical difficulties. Hope you're not holding your breath! ;-)

Myth: If you're infertile, you don't deserve a child.

Earlier this year I was visiting with a sweet friend who had just received news that her first donor egg IVF cycle didn't work. She was of course devastated and unsure of what to think. We cried over the sadness of it all, laughed over the ridiculous stuff we go through, and wondered where one goes from here. But one thing she said to me, through tears, that has haunted me ever since was this... "Do you ever think, that maybe I don't deserve to have a baby?"

Those words broke my heart. My initial thought was, how could you think that?! Of course you deserve it! But as the hours passed, and even days later, I still found myself thinking about it. Because the truth is, all of us infertiles have felt this way at one time or another. Maybe it was only a fleeting thought, but I doubt there's anyone out there dealing with infertility that's never found themselves asking this very question. Do I even deserve to be a mom?

Well I could go on for pages and pages arguing that no one really deserves to be a mom. So maybe "deserve" is the wrong word. But it's so very easy to trap ourselves in this way of thinking. A woman can't help but feel a sense of shame when her body's not able to do the very thing it was created to do. Infertility is found all over the Bible and with it lots of sorrow, ridicule, jealousy, anger, and disbelief. "Shame" hardly covers it. Some chapters even speak of God closing a woman's womb for one reason or another... so it's no big surprise that we all find ourselves asking if we have done something wrong here. Am I being punished somehow?

Girls, please don't believe this lie. It's nothing short of the devil's work. His #1 mission is to turn our hearts away from God and he'll use anything to plant these lies in our fragile minds. It could be something as simple as a well-meaning friend saying, "well, maybe it isn't meant to be." And the thought festers and festers and we start questioning our every action. Am I wasting my time and money here? There must be a reason I'm not getting pregnant. God must be angry with me. What did I do wrong? Does God even hear me?

I know we all have asked these questions and some of us have struggled to find answers. Well, here's what I believe... God doesn't use infertility to punish us. And God doesn't use fertility to reward us. We live in a broken world and people will continue to have babies - people who "deserve" them (by our own standards) and people who don't. But I do know that God uses infertility to grow our faith. He uses it (and any other big struggle in life - you fill in the blank) to draw us closer to Him. C.S. Lewis wrote that "God whispers in our pleasures, but shouts in our pain."

My husband and I are still in the thick of the battle, but I can faithfully say that this journey has already blessed us. I have been connected with other women struggling - people I never would've come across otherwise. God has placed some amazing people in my life to walk along with as we fight on. And He has opened my heart in tremendous ways. I grew up in a Christian home and have always been surrounded by the church, but never before has my faith been on fire like it has been over the last five years. And of course there are ups and downs, even in the good seasons, but I know my God is on this journey with me. It's not about whether I deserve this or not. He knows the desires of my heart because he placed them there, and He hurts along with me. I believe that God has not only used infertility to grow my own faith, but the faith of others as well. Throughout the Bible, God continually uses ordinary people to do extraordinary things. He works through people. I never would've chosen this path for us, but if God wants to use this journey to do a great work in me and possibly others, how can I not praise Him for that?

I certainly don't presume everyone believes what I believe. Whatever you believe, please don't let anyone make you feel like you somehow don't deserve to have a child. Look around you - it's obviously not a qualification for parenthood! But if you do find yourself completely consumed with this lie... even if it's just one random night in bed when you're trying to fall asleep... try calling on Jesus to kick the devil's ass to the curb. I honestly have to do this a lot. And it works every time.

Truth: If infertility is part of your story, remember it's just that. It's part of your story, not your entire story. God can see the bigger picture and he does not make us wait without reason. So continue to seek Him and praise Him and know that He has incredible blessings in store for you.





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FET Video Diary: Rough It Up

Today's video might make you nauseous since the bulk of it was filmed in the car. So there's your warning. We had my "roughin' up" procedure today with the doctor and I'd be lyin' if I said it was pleasant. Thankfully, it was rather quick, but I nearly passed out when the nurse unveiled all the test tubes and tools on the tray for the doctor. It looked like they'd be camping out in my uterus for a good six months with all those gadgets.

So there's no putting a bow on it... this morning sucked. You can see my mood go from fairly cheerful (at least for that early), to nervous, to upset, to doing-my-best-to-crack-a-smile. And no, I'm not rubbing my boob while on the exam table. Though it sure looks like it. Not sure what the hell I was doing. All I know is that as soon as the doctor left the room, I broke out in tears. And I am not a cryer! I'm blaming the drugs.

It's definitely been one of those "why the hell do I have to do all this" kind of days. No worries though... I'll be fine. I just have these days sometimes. We'll find better perspective tomorrow. For now, I think I'll just wallow a little bit. With some cookie cake. Oh wait - already did that... two slices today. Sorry, moo goo.





Next up: Yeah, I don't know. My ultrasound most likely. They'll be doing mine a little earlier than most to get a head start on monitoring my lining.

Previous: First dose of Lupron, CD 21

FET Video Diary: Lupron

Just for kicks, the hub and I thought it'd be fun to log this whole FET (frozen embryo transfer) process on video. You know, kinda like how couples try to spice things up with a sex tape. Hopefully you'll find it informational or maybe entertaining at best, but really we plan to force our kids to watch these videos when we throw them in timeout.

So today is the official kick-off! Cycle Day 21. I started my Lupron injections this morning and will continue those until Dr. T tells me to stop. Aside from a quick procedure next week, my next instructions are to call the nurse when I start my next period.

Drug Info: Leuprolide Acetate Injection
Dosage: 0.1 cc (10 units) every morning




Next up: early Wednesday a.m. appointment with Dr. T

That's right... while you're enjoying your morning coffee, I'll be in stirrups having my uterine lining roughed up. Stay tuned!

I just haven't met you yet.

I know this song is about finding love, but it speaks to a different kind of love for me. Every time I hear this song I tear up a little thinking of all our babes on ice waiting for us. After all the struggles, all the waiting, I know it will be so amazing... but for now, I just have to keep fighting for you.

I Just Haven't Met You Yet

Michael Buble

I'm not surprised

Not everything lasts

I've broken my heart so many times

I stopped keeping track

Talk myself in

I talk myself out

I get all worked up

then I let myself down

I tried so very hard not to lose it

I came up with a million excuses

I thought I thought of every possibility

And I know someday that it'll all turn out

You'll make me work so we can work to work it out

And I promise you, kid, that I'll give so much more than I get

I just haven't met you yet

I might have to wait

I'll never give up

I guess it's half timing

and the other half's luck

Wherever you are

Whenever it's right

You'll come out of nowhere

and into my life

And I know that we can be so amazing

And, baby, your love is gonna change me

And now I can see every possibility

But somehow I know that it'll all turn out

And you'll make me work so we can work to work it out

And I promise you, kid, I'll give so much more than I get

I just haven't met you yet

They say all's fair

in love and war

But I won't need to fight it

we'll get it right

and we'll be united

And I know that we can be so amazing

And being in your life is gonna change me

And now I can see every single possibility

And someday I know it'll all turn out

I'll work to work it out

Promise you, kid, I'll give more than I get

You know it'll all turn out

And you'll make me work so we can work to work it out

And I promise you, kid, to give so much more than I get

I just haven't met you yet

I promise you, kid, to give so much more than I get

I just haven't met you yet

I just haven't met you yet.

Special K

I had wondered about this and, yes, it was definitely confirmed in my FET protocol instructions... I'm not allowed to get pregnant on this Lupron cycle. As if that's a problem for us, but still - I know God has a sense of humor and I never doubt that the impossible is possible. So doctor's orders are to either abstain from sex altogether this cycle, or to use two forms of contraception. And it's a good thing I didn't get these instructions in person, because there's no doubt I would've thrown back one of my favorite Special K quotes, as it indeed was the first thing I thought of after reading said instructions.



If you haven't seen Can't Hardly Wait - shame on you! One of the greatest movies of all time. OK maybe not, but definitely one of the most quoted films in our household.

"I better double bag it - I don't know where that girl's been."